A post with so many Exclamation Marks

A REASONABLE NOTE-TO-SELF

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These are for the night with frustrations (which will be elaborated below):

• A lonely Sunday you spend along by yourself. "You see, I need to see you frequently in order to keep me sane. And any other day rather than Sunday is sadly not guaranteed. So, another Sunday not seeing you means another 6 additional days to another Sunday, which is super long considering the amount of time we get to spend on every Sunday is less than 8 hours. Then if I'm still not going to see you again the next Sunday, I don't know anymore how to keep myself on a right mood track.. So please, do me a favor. Stay in touch." Well, this is me wishing myself to finally have the courage to say whatever it is inside the quotation marks to T, which is relieving even though it sounds like stupid, talking to my own blog.
• Money crisis. Whoa, hold it, Stepphenie if you're going to explode, watch it because you have nobody to blame poverty. Find a job! Pfft, of course you don't want a job right now, right, you want money! Keep blabbering about having nothing, it might helps! You'll get tired of complaining and perhaps, start giving thanks of what you already had. I personally think that this is a stage of final depression. Plus stop being angry with everybody, it's like an in vain shout to an empty space. It echoes back to nobody but you! It will sound pretty much like... I don't know, what sound do you hate the most, self? Anyway what ever it is, you'll hate it! So, don't start the war. Stay low, stay low. This won't help, you'll still get so angry within, but hey it will pass! (((winking hard)))
• Social media and stupid people. Cut off as many people as you could! You're mature enough to differ acquaintance, a friend you don't need, a friend you're gonna keep, or mom's friends ew. If you're not into this or that person, and remember you don't need any particular reason to hate somebody, remove them. It's as simple as block button, hit it! Do what makes you happy. People won't stop annoying you. Cut. Them. Off. Keep your circle small. So small you could almost hold it in one hand. It feels so much better now, doesn't it?!
• Insecurity. There's no such thing, barbie. Congratulations, you're right! People hate you! :) It's okay if you're gonna hate them back! It's okay, Stepphenie, you don't have to like everybody as well! Oh, God, look at how fun it is! Don't try to act nice, for your own sake, you don't need them! (You won't hate people you know you'll need, clever). Don't let the vision of people hating you gets any bigger than your titties. Hate them, hate them so much you're gonna explode.
• "Am I running out of time to do something worthy in my life?" Well. I gotta say to you, self, that eventually people die and all that you've fought for will be nothing but dusty memories of an empty life, nobody would even notice! If you're, let say, 22 now, and you're still got nothing to do, nobody hires you, plus you're fat and single, with no achievements at all, I'll tell you what: Stepphenie, you're not Justin fucking Bieber! Do not compare, and walk on your own speed. As long as you don't stop or commit suicide--even you're going to get beaten up so much, and wow, look at how much hatred you project to yourself right then!--at one point, life will stop mocking you. And eventually it will turn out good in the end. Of course, then you die. Fantastic.
• Seniors. Fucking seniors. Since you're me, and I you, I know this has always been an issue. Say something to them. If you can't find something nice to say, or if you really hate them, say something clever but devastating. Never let ages define who you are and your quality of thinking. If you're right, then you are! Stay away from that kind of people (which I believe you have in mind the name(s) of who they are, right, cause you're basically me! Haha, I'm hilarious as fuck). You pretend they're not there, ignore their existences, make people befriended you and not them. They'll eventually eat their shits they've spilled out about you, and act nice to you in return. Ha, I warn you, it is shit! They are full of shits, you don't wanna smell them! Keep staying away, then you're good. Nevertheless, you're a human being, not their juniors admiring, begging to be, or obsessing your seniors for fuck sake. P.S: These are facts, it happened. You cannot argue these. Oh! Plus, plus, plus! Never, believe in your senior's stupid forecast telling you this/that about everything. They're human, pretending to read your life, not God. (If by all means sometimes--just sometimes--you question about God, then you have literally ZERO reason to believe in their stupid forecast.)
• How romantically pathetic you are. Yes, indeed. Keep feeling blue, keep telling yourself you're not worth it, because you actually are not worth it! :) Look at you: you are fat, you hate yourself while at the same time hating everybody, you're far from the definition of beautiful. But it's okay. At least you know you're the kind of person who fight your best, and you don't give up. Maybe one day, life will set you up with one person: who is absolutely as fucked up as you and your messed up thought about self-worth. But maybe life won't, either. (Ha! Accept it, this is a depressing post.) Anyway, who cares if you're ugly?! Do not push yourself to have a better body or personalities, it's a waste of time! Everybody rots up sooner or later. Eat that now.
• "I can't find any other good things about life." At least you're still you. You're not some pretty grownup women with super beautiful hair and faces and perfect-sized butts/breasts, but empty without brains. Appreciate that you still have one. That's why you keep hating life: because you keep thinking. So, at the moment all these hit you again, stop it. No matter how fucked up your life this time might be, you still got one person who understands. That one person is you. Have a good day, self. 

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